Today is the 6th March 2008. Time passes so fast, it's March already, i thought CNY was just a few days back. Correction. A few hours back. All those visitings and greetings and things, sigh.

Anyway, took two days off, today and yesterday because of CYA MGM a.k.a. Monthly General Meeting for committee seats. Total freak out for me, i wanted to be a committee so badly, at least not a member for three full years, that would mean i achive nothing, equals, shit me. Still waiting for what they have to say, but i don't have much confidence in me, i think neither do the rest. Hence, no hope, but dreams yet to be dreamt again.

Mars was pretty sad when i took off, apparently she was pushing her workload on me bit by bit, so whenever i take off days, she whines, on Tuesday, she whines before i leave for home saying things like, oh it's accounts closing period and you took off, what a bad time to have without you. Whatever, i'm only a temporary girl, it's not like this job is my career for life and a few days off would bring me bad attendance or something.

I've slacked, am slacking and would slack. This is so not me. What happen, lass? Argh.

Went outta house last night, or rather early this morning at around1.30am to have supper with Miguel, Kenneth and Don then came back home at 4.30am. 302 foodcourt. Then off to the stairs outside Cheers mart with some bacardi breezer before i head back home with Miguel on his bike. He said seldom there're girls out with them late night, curfews stand in their way, so i thought, it's my life, i'm accountable for it, anything happens i'll take full responsible, all i have to do, is to inform my parents and that's it. Did left a short note for them before i went out, but went out and came back unnotice, so i took down the note and went to bed. Sometimes it's just better to hang out at night with a few truly trusted friends, coz you know they'll just protect you when things happen, and not run away. Okay, maybe i'm wrong, but i do trust them, that's what Da Vincian does among ourselves - mutual trust.

I feel so lost, so no life, so not happening and so no lively.

Men are jerks, only a minority are princes. Trust me, this is true, jerks just walk off when they're done and sick of you. And it's these jerks that make me realise jerksssss in the world, it's these jerks that turn me into a bitch now.

I'm no longer who i used to be, i'm now a bitch, a slut, a whore and thousands of things you would say to someone who you hate the most. Why? Coz i find no reason to be so good when all you get in the end is being cheated. Fuck off, jerks, you can come close to me, you can even touch me when i have no idea that you did, but you will never never get close to my heart.

Happy old single is better than taking care of another when you can't even take good care of yourself.

It's all silent cries that no one even takes notice.